I dont know what to say, whether to smile or to remain silent.
Knowing that it is with me forever hurts me and makes me ponder why i am the 'lucky' one?
Furthermore, it is a burden to others.
Trying as hard as i can to ignore and be happy to live with it, but its so hard.
God created me beautifully and wonderfully made.
I know He has His plans for me and everything happens for a reason.
To lift up and cast my worries on Him is so diffficult when it is something i cant change or do anything to improve the situation.
But yet i know it is during these situations that i need to lift up to Him cause He is the only one who can do the
impossible. There is really nothing i can do to improve and i can only seek Him for help. I know He will and will provides the best for me.
Father,
i lift up my health to you.
May your Holy Spirit protect me and keep me safe.
I am yours.
I pray that i will be strong no matter what challenges or results it may be.
I pray for direction n ask for your guidance in every thing i do.
Huiping
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Thanking Him Always
So much stuffs have happened to my family and I.
Looking back for the past 2 years, it had been alot alot of changes.
Just wanna thank Him for being there, being so real in my life.
I prayed, U answered.
It's like a miracle that i had survived through so many stuffs.
Things unknown to alot of people, things kept only within my heart, alots more.
Its not only a miracle, but it's a chance to show how God is so real.
Cant imagine myself praying and praying, yearning for Him to answer me straight away.
That day is a wonderful day and i will always rem how He spoke to me in that incident.
PUSH (Pray until something happens).
Yes, its real! Before i m a christian, i have doubts on this 'PUSH'.
Frankly, even when i m a christian, i have doubts too.
How can this be real? Will God really answer?
Yes, He will. It happened to me. And it will happen to all who trust in Him.
Thanking Him for a bunch of Noobies Noobies praying and supporting me.
Thank you, Lord.
Looking back for the past 2 years, it had been alot alot of changes.
Just wanna thank Him for being there, being so real in my life.
I prayed, U answered.
It's like a miracle that i had survived through so many stuffs.
Things unknown to alot of people, things kept only within my heart, alots more.
Its not only a miracle, but it's a chance to show how God is so real.
Cant imagine myself praying and praying, yearning for Him to answer me straight away.
That day is a wonderful day and i will always rem how He spoke to me in that incident.
PUSH (Pray until something happens).
Yes, its real! Before i m a christian, i have doubts on this 'PUSH'.
Frankly, even when i m a christian, i have doubts too.
How can this be real? Will God really answer?
Yes, He will. It happened to me. And it will happen to all who trust in Him.
Thanking Him for a bunch of Noobies Noobies praying and supporting me.
Thank you, Lord.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Imperfections
Recently, there's a TV commercial showing how little imperfections make the relationship perfect.
When her husband is on the verge of death, it is those little imperfections that make her feel happy that her husband's still alive. Her husband's snores may wake her up, but at least in a good way.
Sometimes we see imperfections as big flaws that we cannot stand at all.
But a person can never be perfect, except Him.
You and I have flaws but it is how we see those flaws as good or bad.
Perception of flaws is important as it will affect how we judge a person.
But who are we to judge a person?
Don't judge a person as we are in no position to judge a person.
To some, it may be a weakness but to others, it may be a strength.
In a relationship, there's ups and downs. You and I may complain that we are not good in certain ways, but both of us know that we complement each other with our flaws and strengths.
After watching this commercial, it teaches me to cherish people around me and stop complaining or pinpointing at people's flaws but always see the flaws as something good.
Likewise, see more of the person's strengths than the person's flaws & you live happier.
When her husband is on the verge of death, it is those little imperfections that make her feel happy that her husband's still alive. Her husband's snores may wake her up, but at least in a good way.
Sometimes we see imperfections as big flaws that we cannot stand at all.
But a person can never be perfect, except Him.
You and I have flaws but it is how we see those flaws as good or bad.
Perception of flaws is important as it will affect how we judge a person.
But who are we to judge a person?
Don't judge a person as we are in no position to judge a person.
To some, it may be a weakness but to others, it may be a strength.
In a relationship, there's ups and downs. You and I may complain that we are not good in certain ways, but both of us know that we complement each other with our flaws and strengths.
After watching this commercial, it teaches me to cherish people around me and stop complaining or pinpointing at people's flaws but always see the flaws as something good.
Likewise, see more of the person's strengths than the person's flaws & you live happier.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
www.ipersonic.com - Good-natured Realist (GR)
introverted, practical, emotional, planning, tradition-conscious, good-natured, self-sacrificing, caring, devoted, friendly, loyal, considerate, reliable, conscientious, loving, quiet, reserved, modest, helpful, objective, hard-working, warm-hearted, communicative, painstaking, altruistic
Good-natured Realists are warm-hearted, helpful personalities. They do their work conscientiously and have a pronounced organising talent. They often feel they are committed to traditional values. The family in particular is extremely important to Good-natured Realists. Their greatest pleasure is making themselves useful and taking care of other people. But they do not like pushing themselves to the fore; they prefer to fulfil their tasks out of the limelight. Good-natured Realists are real workaholics; they are very reliable and nothing is too much for them when it is a question of completing a project. Thoroughness, conscientiousness and sense of duty are their strongest points. They prefer established and familiar situations to new and unknown situations.
In dealing with others, Good-natured Realists are considerate and obliging; they are always happy to put aside their own requirements in the interest of their family and friends. Their home is mostly very well cared-for, cosy and tidy. Their perfectionism on the one hand and their aversion to delegating tasks on the other hand often lead to them taking on too much both professionally and privately. They cannot stand discord; conflicts make them very unhappy. One could almost describe them as being harmony-addicted - and this sometimes leads them to strongly neglecting themselves and their own wishes because they are unable to bring themselves to put up a fight.
Good-natured Realists dream of a stable and trusting relationship for life. Marriage and family are very important to them. They take care of their partner attentively and lovingly and put up with a lot for a harmonious relationship. They are also loyal and reliable friends. However, they can be very hurt if their interpersonal commitment is taken for granted for too long.
GR At Work
As a Good-natured Realist you are one of the introverted personality types. Consequently, you don’t appreciate too much commotion around you so you can devote yourself to your task with sufficient intensity and concentration. You can work very well alone and while being immersed in a task, you don’t appreciate to be continuously interrupted or disturbed.
Nevertheless, your need for harmony and your adaptability make you a good team worker if necessary. Therefore, you are relatively flexible when choosing your working environment, and have the ability to decide which setting you prefer. A profession that gives you the feeling that you are doing something for other people is important to you. Good-natured Realists are very caring people and enjoy taking care of others. Despite your in-troverted personality and because you are a feeler-type, it is easy for you to put yourself in the place of others and sense their needs.
You are most comfortable in a one-on-one situation; you are less enthusiastic about delivering speeches to major groups. At any rate, when choosing your profession, make sure to surround yourself with people who share your personal ideals and convictions, and on whom you can count to work with you. Too many obstacles to your caring for and supporting others make you unhappy.
GR in Relationships
Good-natured Realists like you rarely fall in love head over heels. You approach a new relationship very carefully and guardedly. That has to do with the fact that you are one of the introverted Realists who don’t carry their heart on their sleeve, and you need a little time to warm up. Additionally, you have expectations of what you are looking for, and what you need in matters of love. Before you give your heart away, you want to be sure that your counterpart is the right one. In most cases, that protects you from disappointments - and that is good because deep inside, you have a very vulnerable core that does not easily get over genuine lovesickness. However, you permit yourself to get totally involved once you are convinced that your chosen person is worthy of your love.
It is the main purpose of your life to care for others. There is nothing that makes you happier than to look after and take care of your partner. It is an easy equation for you: If he/she is happy, you are happy. You have a very loving, warmhearted, and generous nature that sees to it that your partner simply feels comfortable and in the best sense in good hands and secure with you. You may not be a person of many words but that is not even necessary. Just because you don’t continuously reaffirm it, whoever is with you will be showered with devotion, care, and attention to the point that he/she won’t doubt your love.
Hmmm.... 80%-90% true ?
Good-natured Realists are warm-hearted, helpful personalities. They do their work conscientiously and have a pronounced organising talent. They often feel they are committed to traditional values. The family in particular is extremely important to Good-natured Realists. Their greatest pleasure is making themselves useful and taking care of other people. But they do not like pushing themselves to the fore; they prefer to fulfil their tasks out of the limelight. Good-natured Realists are real workaholics; they are very reliable and nothing is too much for them when it is a question of completing a project. Thoroughness, conscientiousness and sense of duty are their strongest points. They prefer established and familiar situations to new and unknown situations.
In dealing with others, Good-natured Realists are considerate and obliging; they are always happy to put aside their own requirements in the interest of their family and friends. Their home is mostly very well cared-for, cosy and tidy. Their perfectionism on the one hand and their aversion to delegating tasks on the other hand often lead to them taking on too much both professionally and privately. They cannot stand discord; conflicts make them very unhappy. One could almost describe them as being harmony-addicted - and this sometimes leads them to strongly neglecting themselves and their own wishes because they are unable to bring themselves to put up a fight.
Good-natured Realists dream of a stable and trusting relationship for life. Marriage and family are very important to them. They take care of their partner attentively and lovingly and put up with a lot for a harmonious relationship. They are also loyal and reliable friends. However, they can be very hurt if their interpersonal commitment is taken for granted for too long.
GR At Work
As a Good-natured Realist you are one of the introverted personality types. Consequently, you don’t appreciate too much commotion around you so you can devote yourself to your task with sufficient intensity and concentration. You can work very well alone and while being immersed in a task, you don’t appreciate to be continuously interrupted or disturbed.
Nevertheless, your need for harmony and your adaptability make you a good team worker if necessary. Therefore, you are relatively flexible when choosing your working environment, and have the ability to decide which setting you prefer. A profession that gives you the feeling that you are doing something for other people is important to you. Good-natured Realists are very caring people and enjoy taking care of others. Despite your in-troverted personality and because you are a feeler-type, it is easy for you to put yourself in the place of others and sense their needs.
You are most comfortable in a one-on-one situation; you are less enthusiastic about delivering speeches to major groups. At any rate, when choosing your profession, make sure to surround yourself with people who share your personal ideals and convictions, and on whom you can count to work with you. Too many obstacles to your caring for and supporting others make you unhappy.
GR in Relationships
Good-natured Realists like you rarely fall in love head over heels. You approach a new relationship very carefully and guardedly. That has to do with the fact that you are one of the introverted Realists who don’t carry their heart on their sleeve, and you need a little time to warm up. Additionally, you have expectations of what you are looking for, and what you need in matters of love. Before you give your heart away, you want to be sure that your counterpart is the right one. In most cases, that protects you from disappointments - and that is good because deep inside, you have a very vulnerable core that does not easily get over genuine lovesickness. However, you permit yourself to get totally involved once you are convinced that your chosen person is worthy of your love.
It is the main purpose of your life to care for others. There is nothing that makes you happier than to look after and take care of your partner. It is an easy equation for you: If he/she is happy, you are happy. You have a very loving, warmhearted, and generous nature that sees to it that your partner simply feels comfortable and in the best sense in good hands and secure with you. You may not be a person of many words but that is not even necessary. Just because you don’t continuously reaffirm it, whoever is with you will be showered with devotion, care, and attention to the point that he/she won’t doubt your love.
Hmmm.... 80%-90% true ?
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Relationships
It's so fragile.
It's tiring when it's stagnant.
People break up even when they have been together for years.
People marry even when they know each year for few months.
What's the reason?
It's very hard to understand.
Only He knows why.
He places the right people at the right circumstances at the right timing?
It's tiring when it's stagnant.
People break up even when they have been together for years.
People marry even when they know each year for few months.
What's the reason?
It's very hard to understand.
Only He knows why.
He places the right people at the right circumstances at the right timing?
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Random thoughts
With the current financial turmoil that's happening globally, no one can really predict
what goes next?
Definitely more consolidations within the banking industry, more retrenchments due to
similar departments upon M&A. It's just not the right time to enter into the industry.
This has further impacted on other industries. Everyone's tightening their belt to save more
and spend less.. Indeed, this will take a few years to recover?
Make use of this crisis to upgrade ourselves is a good option so as to maintain
competitiveness of our position. In 2 to 3 years time, when things get better, at least
you won't be at the last when everyone's moving up?
Trying to be flexible in job look out, preferably somewhere their work functions are
beneficial to where i am going in future. But can i wait? With further retrenchments, more
retrenched professionals will be on the lookout for jobs these few months. Facing a great
challenge here..
Really feel there's a need to upgrade myself, there's no ending towards learning.
We are learning new stuffs everyday and i find learning's an important journey towards
success and how we perceive things.
A bowl of porridge with salted veg may seem plain and hard to consume for pampered kids,
but to the kids in third world countries, they will feel blessed to have food to live on their day.
I wont be afraid of what is happening around us. It's just a turning point for everyone.
:)
what goes next?
Definitely more consolidations within the banking industry, more retrenchments due to
similar departments upon M&A. It's just not the right time to enter into the industry.
This has further impacted on other industries. Everyone's tightening their belt to save more
and spend less.. Indeed, this will take a few years to recover?
Make use of this crisis to upgrade ourselves is a good option so as to maintain
competitiveness of our position. In 2 to 3 years time, when things get better, at least
you won't be at the last when everyone's moving up?
Trying to be flexible in job look out, preferably somewhere their work functions are
beneficial to where i am going in future. But can i wait? With further retrenchments, more
retrenched professionals will be on the lookout for jobs these few months. Facing a great
challenge here..
Really feel there's a need to upgrade myself, there's no ending towards learning.
We are learning new stuffs everyday and i find learning's an important journey towards
success and how we perceive things.
A bowl of porridge with salted veg may seem plain and hard to consume for pampered kids,
but to the kids in third world countries, they will feel blessed to have food to live on their day.
I wont be afraid of what is happening around us. It's just a turning point for everyone.
:)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Her Story
Born into a family of 13 children, she's one of them.
Out of the 13 children, she's the only daughter.
Daddy doted a lot on her being the only little girl in his eyes.
She has 2 mothers. One's a step mother, the other is her biological mother.
She has 10 step brothers and 2 'real' brothers.
To them, a younger/elder sister.
Her 2 mothers are sisters.
Like the Cinderalla story, she was not favoured by her step mum.
From young, she has been accompanying her biological mum, a domestic helper to
the Caucasians' places. There was this European family who liked her a lot.
When this family wanted to leave Singapore for good, they
proposed to her mum if they could take this little girl with them back to their
country. Her biological mum rejected.
Wow, her mum must have loved her so much and doted on her.
She only finished her primary studies. Step mum thought that a girl need
not study so much. When other people asked her step mum about this
little girl, she will give bad comments like ' stupid girl', 'worst in this family',
'good for nothing'. The young girl took in those comments and did not
rebuked those aunties, cause she felt that she had no choice.
Her step mum will keep bullying and pinpointing on her for no reasons,
yet her biological mum can't do anything to protect the little girl.
Be it every new year/ dinner/ pocket money, her share of the stuff will
be the least. Both her mums do not dote on girls.
She wanted to leave the family so much as she felt alone.
Only daddy love her.
She was often bullied in school because of her complex family.
Friends laughed at her, hit her, ridiculed her.
She placed these stuff into her little bursting heart.
Her dad was a drunkard. She has no one to talk to about her feelings.
When the kids were young, they are still innocent.
As they grew older, things changed.
Gradually, she grew up into a young lady working in
factory and met a bunch of good friends and finally met the man who
walked the aisle with her.
At the age of 18, her dad passed away.
It's even worse for her, as she felt that no one in her family really love her.
At 20, she wanted to get married with the man.
She felt that she can't stay with the family anymore.
She just need a simple, contented life.
But her step mum objected to their marriage.
All the kids have grown up and mostly have a degree or college cert.
But she only studied till primary.
Her step brothers began to view her differently as a different class of person.
And their relationship drifted apart.
Her 2 'real' brothers, both make it to college and degree.
She thought that at least she still have them and her biological mum.
But who knows, things doesn't go as how she thought it will be.
Her biological mum did not bother about her at all, did not help her,
did not the basic thing a mum should have done which is to show
concern for her.
Finally she got married at 23 and left her horrible family.
But deep down in heart, she still loves them, still harbor thoughts of
hoping to get love from her family.
Human is still selfish. Her step brothers live in bungalows with
good careers like director, lecturer, lawyer, bankers driving posh cars.
They despised on her because of her
lowly education, small flat, husband who yet to have completed his primary
studies, husband's job as a technician.
As for her real brother, 1 betrayed her for money, the other was acting the
same way as her step brothers.
Initially, during the first 10 years of her marriage, she will still try to keep
in contact with her family. Her husband and her brought her kids to visit
them during new year or birthday parties. But whenever she did that,
no one bothered to go over to talk to them. They are like the invisible ones.
All of them looked down on her husband, herself and her kids.
They said very hurtful stuff to her, like 'your kids will be as stupid as you in
future', 'i don't have such a daughter/ sister like you', 'with that little pay, are you sure
you can survive?'.
No one welcomed them at all and hurt her with such remarks.
That day was the last time she had a gathering with them.
Eventually, she lost her contact with her family.
A family that she's born into.
A family whom she thought should be the closest one.
A family that brought her so much hurt.
But she married into a good family, not of family of fame and wealth.
It is a family full of love.
No matter how hard her life is, she still remain strong.
She is so strong now because of the love she's holding on.
Love from husband, Love from her daughter and son, Love from her husband's
family.
Though she may not be rich or educated, but she's someone who
is contented with what she has.
She has impacted my life so much that i want to love her all my life.
Mum, you are the most wonderful person i have ever known.
Out of the 13 children, she's the only daughter.
Daddy doted a lot on her being the only little girl in his eyes.
She has 2 mothers. One's a step mother, the other is her biological mother.
She has 10 step brothers and 2 'real' brothers.
To them, a younger/elder sister.
Her 2 mothers are sisters.
Like the Cinderalla story, she was not favoured by her step mum.
From young, she has been accompanying her biological mum, a domestic helper to
the Caucasians' places. There was this European family who liked her a lot.
When this family wanted to leave Singapore for good, they
proposed to her mum if they could take this little girl with them back to their
country. Her biological mum rejected.
Wow, her mum must have loved her so much and doted on her.
She only finished her primary studies. Step mum thought that a girl need
not study so much. When other people asked her step mum about this
little girl, she will give bad comments like ' stupid girl', 'worst in this family',
'good for nothing'. The young girl took in those comments and did not
rebuked those aunties, cause she felt that she had no choice.
Her step mum will keep bullying and pinpointing on her for no reasons,
yet her biological mum can't do anything to protect the little girl.
Be it every new year/ dinner/ pocket money, her share of the stuff will
be the least. Both her mums do not dote on girls.
She wanted to leave the family so much as she felt alone.
Only daddy love her.
She was often bullied in school because of her complex family.
Friends laughed at her, hit her, ridiculed her.
She placed these stuff into her little bursting heart.
Her dad was a drunkard. She has no one to talk to about her feelings.
When the kids were young, they are still innocent.
As they grew older, things changed.
Gradually, she grew up into a young lady working in
factory and met a bunch of good friends and finally met the man who
walked the aisle with her.
At the age of 18, her dad passed away.
It's even worse for her, as she felt that no one in her family really love her.
At 20, she wanted to get married with the man.
She felt that she can't stay with the family anymore.
She just need a simple, contented life.
But her step mum objected to their marriage.
All the kids have grown up and mostly have a degree or college cert.
But she only studied till primary.
Her step brothers began to view her differently as a different class of person.
And their relationship drifted apart.
Her 2 'real' brothers, both make it to college and degree.
She thought that at least she still have them and her biological mum.
But who knows, things doesn't go as how she thought it will be.
Her biological mum did not bother about her at all, did not help her,
did not the basic thing a mum should have done which is to show
concern for her.
Finally she got married at 23 and left her horrible family.
But deep down in heart, she still loves them, still harbor thoughts of
hoping to get love from her family.
Human is still selfish. Her step brothers live in bungalows with
good careers like director, lecturer, lawyer, bankers driving posh cars.
They despised on her because of her
lowly education, small flat, husband who yet to have completed his primary
studies, husband's job as a technician.
As for her real brother, 1 betrayed her for money, the other was acting the
same way as her step brothers.
Initially, during the first 10 years of her marriage, she will still try to keep
in contact with her family. Her husband and her brought her kids to visit
them during new year or birthday parties. But whenever she did that,
no one bothered to go over to talk to them. They are like the invisible ones.
All of them looked down on her husband, herself and her kids.
They said very hurtful stuff to her, like 'your kids will be as stupid as you in
future', 'i don't have such a daughter/ sister like you', 'with that little pay, are you sure
you can survive?'.
No one welcomed them at all and hurt her with such remarks.
That day was the last time she had a gathering with them.
Eventually, she lost her contact with her family.
A family that she's born into.
A family whom she thought should be the closest one.
A family that brought her so much hurt.
But she married into a good family, not of family of fame and wealth.
It is a family full of love.
No matter how hard her life is, she still remain strong.
She is so strong now because of the love she's holding on.
Love from husband, Love from her daughter and son, Love from her husband's
family.
Though she may not be rich or educated, but she's someone who
is contented with what she has.
She has impacted my life so much that i want to love her all my life.
Mum, you are the most wonderful person i have ever known.
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